Wednesday, September 29, 2010

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I didn't have internet connection for 3 days! Horror horror!I guess that makes me an internet addict!
Yeah, when I get too bored I take stupid photos... None which I shall post.
I'm gonna show an example of Sarajevo weather:

It goes like this:
morning: rain
noon: sunny and too hot
afternoon: rain, no clouds, still too hot
twilight: getting cold and partially cloudy
nights: partially cloudy and cold
Always have sunglasses and umbrella in your bag, extra jacket or a
shirt. The weather can change at least 3 to 4 times during the day. September.. I hate you!
I miss summer already.
I live on solar energy, really. I can see my depressed mood crawling behind the doors.


Saturday, September 25, 2010

the dreamer

After the horror post I think it's only fair to post something beautiful.
And that's this Dreamer collection by Karla Špetić! I absolutely love it!
Honestly, how pretty are these outfits!
I like this one the most:
It's because of the colours! It makes the gloomy autumn days so much better!


Thursday, September 23, 2010

The horror!


Out of, well you could call it a morbid curiosity, I started surfing around some pro ana sites. I guess I was just curious about how those people think.
I'm just gonna quote a few:
Q: "any tips on how to make yourself throw up would be very m
uch appreciated! i've tried several times before but been unsuccessful every time! ugh i need help!"
A: "As much water as you can take whle eating. I drink 2 glasses before i eat anything and then take sips after every bit , once im finished eating i drink another glass. It helps to bring the food up. When i have finished purging i drink another glass of water....wait 10 mins
then purge again. Works everytime. Hope this helps.x"

"Oh my gosh, I just puked so hard my head is killing me! My throat is sore, and my eyes hurt.
But I'm down some weight. I've been restricting like crazy, and when I do eat, I usually just throw up until I'm dry heaving. Soon I'll have more self control. But for now, thank you, Mia, for holding my hair back."
"so i was doing so good today... and then a rep had to bring in these delicious-looking pastries.... so i ate one, then i looked up the cals on my calorie c
ounter app and found out there's 600 cals in just that 1 stupida pastry i ate.... so i drunk a ton of water and emptied my tummy....so much better! teaches me to eat something before i know what's in it! holy crap! i really hate purging but i almost feel like it brings more relief than not eating at all...and my tummy feels soooo empty and little! now if someone could just do something about that damn splashing.....! lol" <-- why is this funny????

Q:"I hate vomiting. its really hard for me and i end up bleeding a lot and It hurts and I can't get everything up. Im looking for everybodys fav lax brands. I want s
omething that will flush out my whole system fast. Time in the WC isn't a concern. Help!"

A:"i dont have a favorite per se but i have found for me that th
e ones with bisocodyl work fastest and best... the ones with senna
take a long time but they dont seem to cause as much cramping but they also dont clean me out as well either... i dont know how else to explain... please be careful if using lax - u dont really lose weight only essential vitamins and stuff and they mess up the electrolytes... believe me i know i was
addicted to them and fight constantly to not get back on them... sometimes i make it and other times i take a ton anyway just to get that empty feeling and to punish myself for having eaten... but i make myself limit to one time cuz once ive done it 3 days in a row - im hooked again and getting off took a hospital stay each time..."
Aaaaaand there's so much more!
Are you scared?
I know I am.
I can't imagine people living like that, thinking like that. I've never read anything scarier in my life.
And what's worse, they out these kind of photos to spice it up:
Sadly, all these photos are from people who want to loose more weight! I'm speachless, I have nothing to say about this because it's too sad. To think about yourself in such superficial way is wrong. Being fat is dangerous for health and, in that case, you sohuld loose weight. But being thin and wanting to be thin is sick. I hope that these kind of pro ana sites will one day disappear cos they're making people sick.


I'm gonna go eat now ok


Wednesday, September 22, 2010

achieved the company of demons

or better, i bought little something I call bad hair day hat(?)
Lately I suffer from bad hair days so I just bought this to prevent hair going everywhere. i used to wear this in highschool a lot. But then people told me I look like a boy. When i would wear a skirt they would say: look, a boy in a skirt.
Why? Well I don't really have, what you would call, a voluptuous body. I have more like.. 14 year old boy body... Some curves, small ass, small boobs.. small everything. Recently I got some weight on so I got some thighs there, but other then that.. Don't know, I don't really find myself pretty or anything. I think I look nice. I never wear a lot of make up, eyeliner, some lipstick and a creme that evens the tan. If I really wanna go all the way I add mascara! I believe in minimal make up!
Although I do put on some smokey (wrong spelling but w
ho cares) eyes here and there! As far as photoshop goes, if my friends photoshoop some of my photos I'm ok with it. I never do it myself tho.
Anyway, here's the latest purchase:
(I don't have any make up)

I surfed around a bit and I found some pretty awesome photos.
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this girl is too hot!
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I haven't posted anything fashion related in a while.. It's because I don't really like the new trends, except lace and fighter style for men >.<
Unfortunately I watched Phillip Lim's pret a porte collection for men.. and I hated it! It's too gay! And in a bad way. I don't see how any straight,bisexual or not so overly gay guy would wear it.
I'm disappointed so far. I want fashion to become more 90's.
Like this:
If you thought that Dior's haute couture is maximum fashion, you're so very wrong. Thierry Mugler is a genius!


Monday, September 20, 2010

don't worry, it's pitch black in there



Impenetrable if only one hundred years of solitude
Only left me lonely
And thirsty it was so unleven
Ain't miss believing
I don't stop believe in
Achieving the company of demons
I don't believe in breathing for no reason
I'm leaving i'm leaving
I don't believe in breathing for no reason
It gets that way sometimes you know I got no-one to speak to but my own ghost








Sunday, September 19, 2010

drunks & todays




2 days ago I took these drunk photos.. Sarajevo after midnight. Very
loathsome and depressing
Sarajevo is always a work in progress.. always something is being built, old buildings disappearing . I don't know why but I think it's sad. History going to oblivion.
Am I the only one who finds it sad?

Oh I had a terrible hangover, and on top of that the weather changed from this
To that
I absolutely love foggy weather.. but I hate it when it rains. I don't mind the cold much, but the rain prevents me to go out... Such a dramatic weather but rain.. I just hate it!
I'm so tired right now and I have a bunch of photos to post but I'm just too lazy :3
Tomorrow all shall be posted!
Good night.
I'm off to dream land


Saturday, September 18, 2010

my living conditions

are like this..
Welcome to the entrance of my apartment.. huge hall... the door of my room are on the left and on the right it's kitchen, living room, bathroom, storage room(?)
You can't see 2 more rooms but hey.. you get to see that mess!
I can't wait for it to be OVER already! But so much to do.. so much to do...
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Yesterday I was really sick so I'm just gonna post random pretty things to make me feel better.
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:3

Thursday, September 16, 2010

the runaway

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This girl is a beauty!
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

so

we are renovating zee apartment

I spend most of my days alone

and I do this

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you can see the doors of my room on the left, but it's a mess now...
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

I try

to preserve summer every year.
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